i remember

joe brainard yazmış.. ben neden denemeyeyim?
herkesin birilerine özendiği, özenirse çok makbul olacağını -mı- sandığı bir dönemde, dünyada, pisliğin içinde..
annemin, babamin ölmüş olması, şile'deki evimin emlak vergisini ödüyor olmam, ortağı oldugum bir şirketten ve tamamen başıma kalmış bir firmadan sorumlu olmamın bana getirdigi tek başınalığı dahi özenen insanların arasında, ben joe brainard'cılık oynamışım, çok mu..?

Hadi bakalım:

I remember on one December 31, ekin raised his glass and confessed "i'm god!" right before he threw up all the wine he had.

I remember another December 31, when we were stuck in traffic with my cousins and that my boyfriend had to wait for us in front of our apartment.
it was 1.30 a.m. when we arrived. because we weren't together during the countdown, we later predicted that we wouldn't be so the whole year.. we laughed at the idea then, but shortly it became true..
I broke up with my boyfriend and wasn't able to see my cousins for another 2 years..

I remember a great night on which my mother prepared shrimp cocktail. I was too little to understand the whole "new year" events but, also very sure that we were celebrating something.

I remember the day when we first went out with a boy whom i was deeply in love with. We went to see Carmen, the opera.
The only thing I could listen to though, was my heart beating..


and that'll be the short notes on what I mostly remember about love and "new year's day"..